Audience of One

I grew up as an only child. Yes, I was spoiled but I was not rotten!! As far back as I can remember, I strived to please people. I wanted people to love me and be pleased with me. I wished I would have outgrown that personality trait but I did not. I have struggled with it all of my adult life. A few years back, I attended a pastor's wife retreat. The main thing I took away from that retreat was a song. It penetrated my heart and hit dead center the trait of wanting everyone's approval. It wasn't the words of the song, it was purely the title. The title was "Audience of One". I strive to live my life for an audience of One, for God and God only. I must confess, this blog is challenging this area of growth in my life. I love teaching women. I love connecting with them and helping them through this journey of life. I love witnessing God's work in their life and I love being used by Him to touch another's life. It blesses me. I want to hug them, cry with them, pray with them and encourage them. Teaching on a blog is so different. I do not know who I am teaching. I do not know if it is impacting anybody. I can't see anyones response. I do not know if they are crying, laughing, or sleeping. I can't hug anybody or pray with anybody. However, this blog was created out of obedience to the Lord. I know I am to write for one year regardless if anybody ever reads it or not. It is something that I am suppose to do for me and the Lord. My heart longs to get to the place where I am only concerned with His satisfaction. I want to be content with my audience of One! I am determined to grow in this area. What about you? Who are you trying to please. Is God's approval enought for you?

To be honest I do not remember the rest of the words of the song. I only remember the title. However, I think the Audience of One song by Big Daddy Weave is the essence of the desire of my heart.